Mind Over Matter

I want a baby fridge for my room. Not because I want to hoard my food from the rest of the family (OK, well maybe I do want to do that a little) but also because I want to be able to more easily control my eating options. I feel that if I limit myself to eating only the food in my little fridge or in my personal self on the pantry or something like that, and all of those food choices are healthy, that I will eat better. Obviously, I could just have a little more self control and eat better, but I know me... and I know that I'll do that for a few days, and then I will eat whatever I want after just because I'm tempted by it sitting there in front of me in the fridge. Dumb, I know. I really want to get to the point where I crave healthy foods instead of brownies and chocolate chip cookies. I want to be able to truly have control over what my body wants and what I put into it.

I also want to be more active. My ADD brain can't make myself do the same work out every day, or even go to the same gym every day. I get so sick of it. So, I have devised a plan. I have made a list of things that I like to do (and a few empty spaces to add things if I find more) that require physical exertion and will get me going. My goal is to do AT LEAST one of those a day. I have made a chart, and I am going to be keeping track. Hopefully I will be able to do more than one of them a day, and up my over all activity level. Honestly, I don't believe that you have to kick your own butt at the gym every single day to be fit. I know that hardcore working out is good for you sometimes, and that you need it; I plan on still keeping it a part of my life, but I'm not going to bore myself with the every day monotony of it.

It it worth it to me to be healthy and fit. I don't feel the need to be accepted by other people and have other people think that I'm skinny, or whatever. However, I do want to be able to look in the mirror and feel good about what I see looking back at me. I don't feel horrible about how I look now, in fact, I'm pretty OK with it, but it can be better, and I know it can be better. Why settle if I know that I can be better than what I am? I want to be the best me I can be; spiritually, mentally, and physically.

I can control my body. Mind over matter.

GOALS:

1. To drop 10 lbs. by April 1st, 2010.

2. To eat no more than 1800 calories a day.

3. To fill my life with healthier food choices and more activity, ultimately training myself to lead a healthier lifestyle.

4. To get my 6 pack back.

5. To over all tone up, and increase my strength level.