However, sometimes you get sad.
Part of the problem is probably that it's "that time of the month" for me AND I'm on birth control so my hormones are a little whacked. Not too terribly, but a little bit. So, with that said, don't judge me too bad on what I'm about to whine about. Ok? Ok. Thanks.
I miss using the gifts I have been given. Luckily, Brandon and I have auditioned for a show and hopefully we'll get to be in it. That, however, only dims the "missing." I miss singing in a choir. I miss painting beautiful pictures (or even just painting something even if it turns out like crap). I miss drawing. I miss playing the piano. I miss acting (I still get to be in shows, but not nearly as often as I used to). I miss it all. Very much. And part of me thinks "well if you miss it so much, just do it." And that makes sense to me, but there are some things you just have to do and sometimes those things don't leave much time for ALL of the things you want to do, just some. I am blessed to be able to be in shows (and hopefully the show we auditioned for), to take voice lessons during the fall and spring semesters, and to dance every week at my studio. I am so grateful for those opportunities to use my gifts and develop talents. Sometimes you just miss things though... and I do.
I also am discouraged about my efforts on my weight loss. I'm still working on it, but I'm going through a lull and also having a hard time with self control as far as eating goes (thank you "that time of the month"). That's all I'm going to say. I whine enough about my weight.
As well as those other things, there is a class I am taking... Animal Biology... in which the professor is insane and likes to give a giant test every other week. This class only meets tuesdays and thursdays for two and a half hours and we have a test every other week. It's insanity. I have taken a total of 32 pages of copious, single spaced, 12 point font, edge to edge, full paragraph notes in 6 class periods. RIDICULOUS. It's killin me.
I feel like I really need to make an effort to do the things that make me happy instead of doing the things that I feel I need to do. I do both already, but I think there needs to be more of a balance. Or I need to use my time more wisely. Or something.
I am grateful for the time I get to spend with Brandon lately though. He has changed shifts at work and now works 7 - 3:30 and is home by 4:00 instead of 9 - 6 and home at 7:00. It is fabulous to have that extra time with him. He is the best husband in the world. I love him more than anything.
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