I have wanted to get back into dancing for a long time, but many things have been making it difficult for me to do so. The first and foremost reason for it being difficult to get back into dancing is because I am loyal to my studio and don't want to take anywhere else. This creates a problem because my studio is in Salt Lake City, which makes it super expensive and time consuming to drive down. Also, my mom is slightly over protective and up until about a year ago freaked out and gave me a lot of crap every time I wanted to drive anywhere more than ten miles from home.
The second reason is I am a pretty busy person and it is hard for me to find time to drive down to Salt Lake regularly to take classes. I have wanted to, but something has always come up and made it too difficult to do, or I have had rehearsal or something for a show.
The third reason, and the most embarrassing reason, is because I couldn't swallow my pride. Back when I was dancing a lot, I was pretty good. I wasn't the best, by any means, but I was definitely good. Since I have not danced for five years, however, I know that I am not anywhere near where I was then. I also haven't been learning or anything so all of the people I used to dance with have progressed far beyond the point at which I now am. I didn't want to go down to the studio and embarrass myself, and admit that I can't dance anymore. But, honestly, I couldn't care less about that anymore. It has been so stupid of me to even think that because my friends and teachers that are at my studio know that I haven't danced in five years, they know what I have been through, and they are not going to judge me. They won't laugh. They're just going to be happy that I am back, and help me get to the level I want to be.
So after all this time, I have returned to dancing. I have taken three dance classes this week, and I'm going down again a few more times this week to get a couple more in. Luckily, I've realized that I am not as horrible as I thought that I was. I've still kind of got the ability to move, which makes me so happy. I am hoping that I will be able to continue going down, even if I can't attend all of the classes, or even one class, regularly. I just hope I'll be able to go down now and then.
The feeling of dancing is something that I have missed. It is something that I have never been able to feel anywhere else. I love it so much. It was such a great feeling to get back in to something I have loved and something that has been such a huge part of my life for so long. I know this sounds cheesy, but I know that my Dad is glad too. I know that he is happy that I am doing what I love again (not that I don't love the other things I've been doing, because I definitely do) and that the thing I am doing is dance, which he taught me to do.
I LOVE YOU DAD! Thank you for putting this love of dance in my heart and soul. I miss you!
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